Down the drain with all those fears..well sort of

Ah-the younger years, what great times. I remember all the fun times, but I also remember the worst. I was afraid of the dark-like most little girls. I would always make my momma or daddy turn on my little night light. I would center myself in the middle of my bed and lay perfectly still. If I was to wake up, I would grab all my stuffed animals and put them all around me so it(whatever i imagined it to be like monsters or burglars etc.) wouldn't "get me". As I have grown up I lost fears but gained some more, like fitting in, and the fear of being rejected. The one thing that I've always feared was flushing toilets. I would flush and run! I truly hate, i will repeat, HATE automatic flushing toilets. I've hated those things ever since I was little and on an airplane...I thought I was going to get sucked down...yeah getting a little to personal there :)
Well as time goes on fears may change but there will always be a fear of something.

=]

Waiting and Thinking

About the days past

Wishing and Wanting

To go back real fast

Hoping and Praying

I won't finish last

Waiting and Thinking

What did I do

Wishing and Wanting

Why I gave up you

Hoping and Praying

I'll end up with you

Waiting and Thinking

Is it all true

Wishing and Wanting

To not feel blue

Hoping and Praying

This will fall through

Waiting and Thinking

Wishing and Wanting

Hoping and Praying

That I'll fall back to you

Amazed.....

"Everyone wants to be loved every once in a while"

This past Wednesday night at church, I had the opportunity to work with the little kids by being a cashier in the rewards store. One of the greatest ministries at my church is the bus ministry. The bus picks up kids from every walk of life. As we opened up the store I saw the faces of these kids light up. Our merchandise was gently used toys so it wasn't that big of a deal but then that got me thinking...what are these kids lives really like? Throughout the night I was amazed at what I saw. Kids walking through the door dresses in dirty, worn clothes, their hair greasy and "ragged." On some of them there were bruises maybe from clumsiness but I'm guessing not likely. The thing was these kids were so sweet and cherished everything. All they were looking for was an hour of love and devotion. There's this little guy, Deacon, who is about 4 and he can't talk-he points and grunts, just because his mom didn't interact with him or give him the time of day. Now I feel like it's my job to care for these kids even if nobody else does because everybody does want to be loved every once in a while, and I'm so fortunate to have a good life that I often take for granted.

Raindrops Keep Falling on my Head........

Lately here in good 'ole Kentucky there has been a lot of rain and cloudy days. People have been complaining about how much it rains and they wish for it to stop....well I DON'T!!!!!! Rainy and overcast days are my favorite-especially on Saturdays. On those days I grab a book a curl up on the couch in front of our bay window. To me that's one of the most relaxing things to do. Hearing raindrops hit the window or roof of a building just makes something inside of me peaceful. No don't get me wrong I love sunny days as well but I would pick rainy days over those bright, bright, bright sunshiny days. = ]

Sittin in Drama

Ok so I have drama 3rd period on blue days. I love drama. This year I got on a crew-something I've never done before and to tell you the truth, it sucks. Our play this fall is a Christmas play called Yes, Virginia, There is a Santa Claus. I'm on the crew house and publicity so I make flyers, the playbill, and thats about it. I've already done everything house and publicity does so I'm pretty darn bored. If she asks me to do something I will it can be so boring....but I'm not complaining---this is when i finish all my english homework that is due next period....just kidding....well not really. LOL.

Driving Little Miss Marley.......

So last night, I was told I would have to ride the bus to school in the morning. I hate riding the bus in the morning----its so crowded and i get to school later than I like to. Well as i was turning my lights off my dad poked his head in and said, "What time are you getting to school?" I said I didn't know, and he just smiled his big grin at me. "I'll take you into school tomorrow morning little girl"

"Really!?Thank you, Thank you, Thank you!!!" I was so excited. I even bounded down the stairs. After that I couldn't go to bed. You see I love when my daddy takes me into school. In one of my earlier blogs I talked about my drives with mother being peaceful. Well with my daddy its loud and full of energy. I guess you can say it wakes me up. = ] As soon as I get seated and buckled my dad turns on the radio to an oldies station. Now a few years ago I hated the oldies and I would've been the kid sinking lower and lower into the front seat, but for the past 3 years or so me and my daddy have gotten really close especially in the summers when hes off more-that's where I feel in love with the oldies. OK-so back to this morning....once we pulled onto 231 we were already belting out lyrics. Once the song was over he turned down the radio and we talked and laughed, then when another song came on up goes the volume. One of my favorite oldies songs came on and it was by Tony Orlando and Dawn----"Knock Three Times." My dad gets very enthused when he listens to "his oldies". So he was dancing and like practically yelled the lyrics. That cracks me up and of course I'm sitting right beside him doing the same thing. : )

As we are getting closer and closer to school, Dolly Parton comes on the radio with her famous hit, "I Will Always Love You" I actually like that song and my dad loves Dolly so again we belted it out. Now I'm an Edmonson and Edmonson's have big mouth so I feel sorry for the cars that were beside us at the red light. LOL. By the time we got to school I had the biggest smile on my face as I said goodbye to my dad. I love my dad and our drives together...what can i say? Like Father Like.....DAUGHTER!

Money Money Money,,,,MONEY

Everyone loves money--right? Well of course they do. It helps you do everything and get everything you need. But it's not all that important. To make me happy, I don't need all the newest accessories, clothes, or whatever--just take a look at my cell phone-lol. I'm happy with everything I have in my life. Now true, I would like to have some for those new objects, they aren't worth fighting for. Money has a very big impact on life. Sometimes it's all people can think about-they just have to have EVERYTHING. I think that's why our economy is in the gutter. So in a way it does make the world go round but maybe it will be going spiraling downward here in a few years.

Best Friends

Everyone has a best friend. Best friends are always there to cheer somebody up or just to hang with. Without my best friends I would be lost. I can talk to them about anything and vice versa. I was reading a book the other day and it had a pair of twins and they could finish each others sentences and stuff. I can do that with my best friends-it's so funny. It's like we really are sisters and we just got sepearted at birth. I have three best friends....Madolyn, Katie, and Kim. Madolyn goes to Daviess County High School-which sucks but she lives the closest to me so we tend to hang out...A LOT. In elementary school, our teachers called me, katie, and madolyn the three musketeers. Katie is the friend I've known the longest and we have tons of fun. Kim is a year behind me in school but we go to church together so thats good. We have been through so much and I know that they will always be there for me. I'm just so thankful for them.

Laughter... = ]

I just love to laugh. I laugh all the time---seriously. Especially on the Internet I say lol, or haha after everything I say--it's a habit. Also my laugh is very distinctive-everyone knows me by my laugh. It feels so good to laugh especially if you've had a bad day. That's one of the greatest feelings to me when I've had a crappy day then I talk to my friends and they make me laugh. I truly think laughter is contagious because at lunch the other day me and my friend Ashley were reminiscing about our middle school days. She started laughing then I started laughing and the next thing we knew the whole lunch table was laughing. This was a fun blog...LOL! = ]

We're Having a Party...A Search Party That Is

Last night was a very interesting night let me tell ya. It was about 6:30 and I was eating dinner at church like I do every Wednesday night. But right as I was taking a big cheesy bite of lasagna goodness, there was an announcement saying an elderly lady with Alzheimer's disease was missing. Now I go to church in McLean County, so everyone knew who this lady was. Ms. Underwood(the missing lady) lived within a mile from my church so instead of having services and youth we went to join the search. As soon as me and my mom pulled onto 231 we saw flashing lights everywhere. When we got to the house there were already trucks and 4 wheelers, firetrucks, police officers, and ordinary people like us there to join in and give a helping hand. I think the whole county was there to tell you the honest truth. From younger kids to older men we went on the search through weeds and stick-tights. Knowing my luck I had worn a cute somewhat dressy shirt, and my flip-flops. Let me tell you flip-flops are not the best type of shoe to be wearing during a search party. We searched and searched but couldn't find anything. The firefighters had already taken thermal images of the surrounding area and around the lake. They came up blank. Before ya knew it, there were mules with flashlights searching as well....now that's a sight to see-i mean you know you're in McLean county when you have mules as four wheelers. = ] The darkness was closing in on us and time was running out. Since we rushed from church nobody was really prepared and we didn't have many flashlights so most of the people with out flashlights went home...me included, because there just wasn't much we could do after it got dark. So I went home and took a shower because who knows what all I got into over there, and all of the sudden our phone rings. "Thank the Lord she's been found!" my mom says in joy, as she hangs up the phone after having a brief conversation with our pastor. I think the whole county rejoiced in finding her. She was going to be alright-she wasn't seriously injured or anything like that. So i went to bed in peace...but it got me thinking...if I was lost would people be looking for me? Well I sure hope so!!!!! Lol. = ]

Right Back To Where I Started....

" You’re always in my heart You’re always on my mind And when it all becomes too much You’re never far behind And there’s no one that comes close to you Could ever take your place ‘Cause only you can love me this way "
That is just the chorus of one of my favorite songs and it's sung by Keith Urban. Now I'm not a fan of Keith Urban at all, but this song is one that relates to me and I think anybody in love. So there's this guy that I've liked-well- for a LONG time and everywhere I go he is on my mind. Like there are things I see in everyday life and I remember something that leads to him. IT'S CRAZY! I've tried to get him off my mind I really have but it just doesn't work. I've tried to like other guys---but that plan REALLY failed. So right now in my life I have no clue what to do next....I'm just a stick in the mud. I would say I'll move on, but I know exactly where I'll end and that's right back to where I started.....

A day to remember

OK so when I was younger and I went to the funeral home for my friends grandmother's funeral I was jealous of her riding in the funeral limo. I thought it would have been so cool. Well now that I'm older and I've now ridden in it-it's not that fun. This past weekend my grandfather passed away at the age of 85. All of my family knew it was bound to happen because in fall 2008 he was diagnosed with a large aortic aneurysm. So when we got the call Friday night that my grandad was having serious seizures we knew his time here on earth was coming to an end. Even through the tears there was joy and laughter. On Sunday when we had "family time" alone we were watching his memorative video and we were laughing at the good times we had with him. When we came out the people at the funeral home said that was the most laughter they had ever heard there. I realized through this experience I had great friends and an amazing church family. I can't thank everyone enough. Even though he's "gone" I know he will always be in my heart.